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What a difference a couple of days make, right?

I just missed a phone call from the gig in Bay Ridge. He sounded like he wanted to talk to me ASAP. I assume this means I'll be offered the position shortly -- and now it comes down to salary. I'm not as afraid of negotiation as I once was. Thank you, experience.

(I once heard that experience was a good thing 'cause it allowed us to recognize a mistake when we made it again.)

My insides, for all to see: Talked to J today. The online chatting was a bit, well, sad and angry. On both ends. Not good. We scrapped it and decided to talk on the phone. In the end, we resolved to create some real distance for the remainder of '06. I think this is a good thing. It is imperative that he figure things out -- I mean, breaking off a relationship is no easy task. I recognize this.

(Thank you, experience.)

For those of you who can recall, it took me many years to finally end my relationship with the ex-in-a-certain-band (ahem, Maserati) after much back-and-forth messiness. It's not lost on me that break-ups (especially when dealing with engagements) aren't fun and cause one to second guess every single step.

So, yes. We're taking some time off so that he can figure out what he wants -- and so that I can figure out what I want, as well. I'll miss him immensely, as he's become one of those rare individuals that I look forward to speaking with at least every other day.

In the end, whatever happens, happens for the best.

Heading back to the city tomorrow for another interview but will be back in the 'burbs by nightfall.

Still haven't tackled that gingerbread house and I'll be damned if it's not completed by mid-month.